Looking For work in Dublin, by pd lyons. As published by The Legendary Down Dirty Word


this version of Looking For work in Dublin appeared in issue #16 of The Legendary. http://www.downdirtyword.com/authors/pdlyons.html#tp Would have been written around 1998 upon my first going to Dublin to look for work. Hence the title. For me Dublin was a very cool place full of great Joycean mythologies, spiced with rebellion and whiskey ghosts, and the fact that I was wandering among the dreams of my father… Everything was possible and still the taste of strong tobacco and black coffee kept me aimlessness in the good company of of my own self reminding me to the streets of my own home town Waterbury Ct. In fact there are some elements in the poem come from older Waterbury/New York notes. Seem to dove tail nicely. A commonality of cities.

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The same girl sitting on different buses going by over and over I knew if I saw her one more time the rest of the world would completely liquefy and go with her. Wishing to avoid that whirlpool of a thing I knocked back the coffee, paid and left keeping my eyes firmly focused on the sidewalk made my way to Eccles Street. Sidewalk, crosswalk not daring to look up risking my life in the traffic like a blind man saving the world.

In the crumbling doorways tilted columns boarded windows planning permission posters all along the way safe to be looked at on the right side of the street I had no fear of buses as the decaying signs of Eccles street lead me down to the Georgian centre for saving the ruined life of city boys saving ruins among the ruins 90 days repairs a lifetime then out with you maybe meet again in some emergency of violence queued up amidst the hospital flu wishing you weren’t here.
there must be some as yet undiscovered carpet to sweep you under.

On my helter skelter straight way down to the bus station maybe O’Connell street. instead some nameless to me slope of a road not to far is that the tower of Ulysses where once Telemachus watched black mass Mulligan sacred shaving interrupted by old Ireland who may have forgotten her own tongue but remembering to bring the milk had her tits compared to moo-cows and other things I cannot now remember. everything old once was new like some profundity this rolls around in my brain tickling something in me I’m not sure of any more than why.

Cutting across I decide on O’Connell, I am afraid of the city only now when I am so indecisive about destinations as if there is some gang of violence waiting for that sign I send of not knowing where I’m going. Jackals of the lost man wandering seeking safety in the numbers of O’Connell, safe among the herds, oblivious to the old, ignorant of the new. penniless. No merchants sanctuary, a foreigner among the African languages and Friesian competitors, children named Rosalitta frown then smile, German hippies Burberry plaid guitars,

Somehow I don’t belong except to old bullet holes on the GPO*, rusted tin enameled placards above the discount shop on Talbot, soldier statues, new inns ward, eroded Grecian friezes on greasy brick work, stained glass window cracked holes. Noticing no one seems to notice like me wanting to some how take the time to repair myself, remind myself, inquire of the passer byes as to whom they attribute freedom to.

We are in a hurry to forget, do our best to not remember.

There has never been another day like today
There has never been another way
It has always been so
World without life
Amen.

A long cat stretch beach of green benches
Cobble stone tides break debris from yesterday’s storm
Soggy cardboard
Bleached pigeon bones
Desperate for sunglasses
Into the leather sleeves of my dreams

 

* GPO – General Post Office Dublin where the pock marks from bullets fired during the 1916 rising cand still be seen on the columns.  http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/General_Post_Office,_Dublin

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  • Donna J Snyder  On March 13, 2015 at 8:33 pm

    This carried me along in its own wake, l lulling me, almost ticking me to sleep. I’ve never been to Dublin and never neat the street seeking work. But I have traveled months at a time in foreigncountries, and your words tool me back to those times, bringing back the disorientation and flagrant invisibility as a foreigner in cities five times or more as old as the US.

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    • pdlyons  On March 15, 2015 at 1:28 pm

      yes it was a kind of swirly experience. the first time i left the states was a trip to germany – not speaking a word of german. spent a moth in hamburg in january. i was also stranded for a few weeks in the canary islands not a word of spanish – amazing how that feels! Thanks for the read and the contact!

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  • pdlyons  On August 17, 2015 at 4:53 pm

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