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nobody knows the songs you want to hear
everyone thinks its funny when your eyes are full of tears
everybody says they do
but they don’t know.
the music you’re not supposed
to dance to.
the people you’re not supposed
to talk to.
everybody says things
but what they mean –
you’re just too old to be here.
1985
Such have I heard ~
soft moss mornings a mist unsolvable.
harsh sheets stones on a frozen ground each bouncing echoing.
wounded banshee whiplash dark empty fingers naked trees.
smooth smothering heat
days wrapped in wet cottons left out between a desert of noon
myriad deep yielding into deeper nights
Such have I heard ~
alone only my slender secret self
. how to bring any comfort to what has gone beyond?
would they surrender such treasure willingly?
could it happen even so?
the dead
who better else to weep
who better else between the worlds?
a sea of tears,
a sailing of ghosts
such have I heard
such have I known
.
beside those trees
No one knows for sure how
Maybe some ice age fluke
Some shamanistic trance gone awry
But some how it is there
Just a few acres wild weeds witnessed by an empty house an
Abandoned sheet metal shop standing where once the white wood slaughter house once stood where layer after layer of thick lead paint could not keep old blood from seeping through
Beside those trees where the road parallels those tracks over that stone grey arch bridging this river tainted now as then by run off from the tannery
just a few acres wedged in by a half circle ridge of glacier rock and sapling hardwoods where wolves though heard are never seen and leave no trace not even in the snow where only smooth soled sets of footprints going in disappear mid filed and like wise sometimes appear mid filed heading out and all through the month of November any remnant of growing thing be it stem or stalk or stick, each night is tipped with a single never freezing liquid drop such are the tears from all those who pass in one direction or the other through what we called Little Russia.
2. When I was a kid at school we had the books
They had all the symbols in them even satanic ones
All the symbols of the world
Old and new.
But one day this man came, he went around to all the class rooms.
He took away all our books.
Even the teachers were mad at this
But they had to give us other books.
New books without all the symbols.
Now they don’t teach you anything,
Just reading comprehension – you read something they give you,
Then you answer a question about what you read
Then you get a degree
Then you forget it.
But I remember we had the books
They had ever symbol in the world even the satanic ones
All the symbols old and new –
Now people don’t know anything.
They don’t know this is an ancient world,
They think it’s only six thousand years but its not.
Its millions and millions.
We had the symbols once but they were taken away.
And I know this, even though people don’t know them anymore,
There would be no world without the symbols.
And I know this, there’s still a place where you can find them,
Beside those trees where the road parallels those tracks over that stone grey arch bridging this river tainted now as then by run off from the tannery
Under the bark of old wood, drifting under pieces of bark and branches
All what people say are just worm marks the symbols of the world old and new made by such worms as those there are in Little Russia.
3. What they don’t teach anymore about photosynthesis in schools?
That each leaf of each tree makes a photograph, an image of what’s around it. This is how there are many worlds at once.
each year when the leaves fall the images are stored inside the tree and when the new leaves appear they do so with all the images taken by all those leaves that came before and then through out the growing season these fresh leaves take additional photographs. The images get stronger and stronger depending on how many photographs of them have been stored. The longer something is there the stronger it becomes – building up substance over the years.
that’s why if you parked a model A here beside this tree and left it there eventually the real car would disintegrate but then be replaced by an image of the car an image created by thirty years of constant photographing by multitudes of leaves. Thus these photos are synthesised into an image so
That long after the original had rotted away
That model A
No mechanic can make run
No grease fills its crank case
No gasoline fills its gas tank
You sat in it made it go up and down up and down
Then ran home shouting
Grandpa! Grandpa! I flew the car! I flew the car!
Beside those trees where the road parallels those tracks over that stone grey arch bridging this river tainted now as then by run off from the tannery.
Didn’t we meet there once?
Weren’t you the one draped in skins?
Smile polished sepia
Black eyes stranded behind silver languages
Mindful of Ukraine choirs before the war
Dear one, dear one, my dear dear dear one
Starlings of tears each familiar voice polished crystal snow
Beside those trees where the road parallels those tracks over that stone grey arch bridging this river tainted now as then by run off from the tannery
( for Jim when he lived in a tent by a river in New Milford ct. – we met while I stopped for a smoke, we shared a few and had a conversation. it was winter and I only had a fiver to give him and a half a pack of Marlboros – he gave me this poem. I tried for years to do it justice. He’d a done it better himself. Anyway the important thing is Jim not the poem – so here you go Jim – this ones for you, and maybe all those who unlike yourself never had a chance with all the symbols of the world.)
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from the tiredness of my bones
not syllables of warm water mouths
rather emanate rich with marrow silent sensations
hot cold
soft foetal
crescents of your ears
depth deeper than you know of your eyes
the vast rift of tears
your endless heart
alone sometimes in the dark
I have been a labour for you
silently aloud
likewise you should read
these words so unlike other words
each window through which invisible creatures
of what cannot be said climb
from As if the rain fell in Ordinary Time
by P D Lyons
Publisher: erbacce-press. Liverpool, UK, 2019
Such have I heard ~
soft moss mornings a mist unsolvable.
harsh sheets stones on a frozen ground each bouncing echoing.
wounded banshee whiplash dark empty fingers naked trees.
smooth smothering heat
days wrapped in wet cottons left out between a desert of noon
myriad deep yielding into deeper nights
Such have I heard ~
alone only my slender secret self
. how to bring any comfort to what has gone beyond?
would they surrender such treasure willingly?
could it happen even so?
the dead
who better else to weep
who better else between the worlds?
a sea of tears,
a sailing of ghosts
such have I heard
such have I known
.
Age by PD Lyons
Sunlight on the window sill
Little red birds search the hedge
While pale ghosts of what used to maybe be
Slip away
No longer needing to be fed by me
photo by Morgan Lyons
OF THE TWO WITNESSES, HOLD THE PRINCIPAL ONE
In any situation there are two witnesses: other people’s view of you and your own view of yourself. Of those, the principal witness is your own insight. You should not just go along with other people’s opinion of you. The practice of this slogan is always to be true to yourself. This slogan says that of the two witnesses, hold the principal one as the actual, authentic one. That authentic witness is you.
Training the Mind and Cultivating Loving-Kindness
by Chögyam Trungpa,
photographer unknown
This above all: to thine own self be true, And it must follow, as the night the day, Thou canst not then be false to any man.
(1564 – 1616)
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